Lyrics:

And, mother, I am sorry I never pick up, mm-hmm
Because I`m afraid to disappoint, ooh, ooh-ah, ooh, no
Hey, and I`ve been feelin` like I don`t matter how I used to
Hey, and I`ve been feelin` like I don`t matter how I used to

We were sat outside on the hardwood floor, with our
Feet in dirt, and our hearts in awe, I be
Losin` sleep thinkin` `bout missed calls, and I
See the names circlin` our thoughts, and I
Think about if we lose it all, and I
Turn to shit that you`d never want, like the
Smoke, the drink, anything at all, and I`ll
Say again, 'Sorry I don`t call'
There`s no money on my mind, but my money or my mind
What`s the first to fall?
I never wanted this shit, yeah

Hey, and I`ve been feelin` like I don`t matter how I used to
Hey, and I`ve been feelin` like I don`t matter how I used to

Sometimes it be so spot on it hurts
Like when auntie couldn`t decide between goin` to work or church
I`ve been in my feelin`s on an island in the dirt
I feel like brothers lie just so my feelin`s don`t get hurt
I said, I`ll try vacation, I`ll try to run away
I deleted Facebook, I`ll trade fame any day
For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate
I`ll switch my place if that`s good for you, is that good for you?
My ghost still haunt you, my life is I, Tonya
A big-eyed monster, only face to conquer
I hated songs about fame `cause that stuff meant nothin`
Until them headlines came, then first flight I`m stuck in

And maybe it means nothing but I have to say I think about you often
And if you want no part with me, I`ll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
And maybe it means nothing but I have to say I think about you often
And if you want no part with me, I`ll walk away, I know that I have wronged you

I took a plane to somewhere that I`ve never been
Too many times without my sister and my brother
Dad or mother by my side, but they`re in spirit
I always hear it, I know they feel it
My mom will always have these dreams that used to keep her up at night
I smoke to keep them all away and make use of the time, I`m void of feelin`
The reasons I`m so out of touch now start revealin`
But I`m not ashamed, I`m not afraid of who I am
Or how I trust my mental, yeah, it`s not perfect
But I guess that`s just the shit I`m into
I fantasize about a time when everything was simple
My shelter sheltered me from things I needed to commit to
The way it stands to me
A victim of Stockholm in my friendships and family

What`s costin` you time? What`s the reason that you whine?
What`s in your wallet? Dead whites in mine
So sour, in this light of lime
Daddy said, 'Study or get that cash'
Mommy said, 'Your career ain`t gon` last'
Loose change, call a cab, move out their pad
I just need a chance to move past my past
Don`t think too fast, private jets still crash
And I`ll still fly coach, and I`ll still hit a roach
And I`ll still see roaches at the crib where my folks at
Touch your dreams `fore you touch me and provoke a man
(Somebody gonna have to tell the truth and I`m gonna tell it!)

I will, I will (I don`t matter), I will (Ahh)
Can I tell you now?
Can I tell you now?
I will